freetofly

2007-05-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last day of school
cos today was meet the parents session
finally persuaded my parents not to go meet teacher
then f had to go request to meet my parents
so had no choice
she said stuff like ask my parents to ask me go think about what i want to do with my life
and with my current results only can go ite
so wth
only sec 3 mid-of-years what
and i know i never work hard enough
so its not as if im stupid
i got fifth position lor
from the bottom, that is
and why does meet the parents have to happen on the last day of school??
parents gonna give me hell during the hols..
oh well
going to have to work super hard for the rest of the year
anyway
lots of 'great' things happened on the last day of school
first my eye was swollen
then i got this stupid hideous haircut the day before so went to school with it
plus i had rubber bands in my mouth
what a 'great' day i had!

now, maybe i cant even go sailing anymore
because of poor results
my father said that i cant go sailing until the end of the year):
oh manz
so wth
ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

some very random pics..

2007-05-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

finally paid mrs goh the piano fees(:
then after that had sailing in the afternoon
actually our class wanted to go to sail to Seletar park
but on the way it started raining
so coach asked us to turn and go back to shore
but the rain suddenly became SO heavy
that everyone started capsizing
after that the waves also got bigger and bigger
my boat turned turtle
and i couldn't upright it
there was tunder and lightning
and i saw purple lightning
those clear lightning type that u only see in pictures
and the rain also got so heavy that it was pain when it hit the skin
it was damn scary
everyone drifted apart
or maybe it was only me
couldn't see anyone at all
visibility was that bad
and the waves were huge
the lightning seemed to travel closer and closer to me
and i was damn scared lah
cos my dagger board sticking out
and lightning is supposed to strike the highest point around
and that was the highest point around
so i kind of just stayed in the water and clung on to the boat
and prayed and prayed and prayed
and sang songs
that kind of helped a bit
anyway it was like i was the only one in the middle of the sea
with the big waves
and the big big storm
since i couldn't see anyone at all
at first thought that no one was gonna rescue us
and that we had to wait till the storm cleared and then sail back ourselves
i was like die lah
by that time sure get hit by lightning already lor
waited quite long
and getting more and more stressed and scared
because of the stupid lightning
then suddenly saw a motor boat!
and it was coming closer and closer
thought they wanted to tow my topper back as well
so tried to tell them that i couldn't upright it
then in the end
the guy was like "listen to me carefully,
grab my hand"so i treaded water, swim swim
then finally grab his hand then he took my life jacket/pfd and pulled me into the boat
when i got in, was facing the bottom of the boat lah
so damn unglam..
anyway
then isobel
helped me into the back of the boat
i was the third person to be rescued in my boat
then sat at the back of the boat
and looked out for others that were still in the water
then we were all like discussing about the whole thing
it actually was kind of drama
like some kind of movie
later found genevieve as well after vivian
she was in the middle of some plastic containers that surrounded with no gap in between
wonder how she got in there!
and it was some boundary of some kelong as well lor!
then our boat passed some the other rescue boat
tried to look for claire
but she was not rescued yet
i was like where's claire, where's claire?omg omg is she okay??
then started praying
luckily the next time we passed the other boat
she was in there(:
finally after rescuing everyone
we went back to shore
it was so shaky and dizzying when i stepped onto the ramp thing
oh and the motor boat also made me very dizzy lor
dunno how can they stand being in the motor boat for so long
and now as im typing this
the whole world is also shaking lor
got the being in the boat kind of feeling
very very dizzy
the walls, the floor, everything is moving in a wave-like manner
havent felt this way since GKA
anyway
saw claire when i reached shore too
think she was very scared
she said she was crying in the motor boat at first
cos when she initially saw my boat
she didn't see me
think i was already rescued
then she thought dunno what happened
and there was snot on her face
hahas
if under normal circumstances
it would have been quite funny
actually i capsized quite far away from her
guess my boat drifted all the way to her side
see the power of the big big gigantic waves!
later after the storm finally cleared
the people went to look for our toppers and pico
most were still in working condition
but there was one sail the pole thing which was broken
and another which was bend
oh and my boat came in last
at nearly 7pm
after coach went out again to search again for it
hope its okay
didn't get a chance to look at it

this is really a memorable last lesson
in fact even more memorable than had we been ableto go to Seletar park
i think i will never forget it ever
maybe tens of years later
i will be able to tell people that "when i was just a teenager, at 15 years old..."
hahas
oh and since its the last lesson
we took pics with everyone
hope i get the pics
will really miss everyone after so many weeks of training together
(:

later in the evening
went to tony roma's for dinner
oh man
their ribs are like the nicest ever
and the baked potato and the soap
actually its very fattening
but dont care lah
its so damn nice lor
and their bread with their own butter
also the best!

what a wonderful day!
the damn nice dinner totally made up for the stranded out at sea part..
what a narrow escape man!

2007-05-18T11:41:00.000+08:00

in com lab now
slacking away during english
actually pretty much slacked the whole week away..
hahas
ppl poned the whole week.
so yea
pretty slacky
lalala

2007-05-16T18:03:00.001+08:00

realised that i havent blogged for a long long time..
had camp from 9-11 may
the sec 3 development camp
at changi coast adventure centre
had a fun time
did abseiling, rock climbing and zip line
and kayaking, sea rafting and improvised rafting.
the dorms were quite nice too, i like the floors we slept on
but the toilets were disgusting!
it was clean compared to mega camp lah
but it was disgusting after everyone bathed
like sand and mud and hair everywhere..
and campfire was great too
but the fire a bit pathetic..as it rained on the first day and they had no time to go cover the wood.
i was in group 2, orion and our instructor was viona!
the one who thought us merlion clap and the in changi we do it with our fingers..
hahas
loved the didi didididi a baby shark
didi didididi a baby shark
didi didididi a mama shark...
heh heh

u think funfair ah!
说来就来，说走就走，一票玩到底！做梦阿！
this was what yuan long(grp 1&2 combined co-instructor)loved to say and ah bao too!
hahas.

overall the camp was fun lah
most people had a great time
actually kinda missed it..
but oh well
there's still mega camp to look forward to！

oh and we started getting back common test results today
as usual
flunked them both):
physics and geography
actually i improved on geography!
but still very lousy lor.
sometimes really regret taking pure geography
everyone excluding friends was telling me to take pure lit at that time
but based on sec 2 results,
geog was one of my best subjects
so i thought should be quite easy right..
how wrong i was..
think im gonna fail chemistry and dunno how many other subjects..
my rank for this term is gonna be in the last few of the class or something lor
all along i have always been in the top twenty of the class lah
then now...
so gonna die
):

2007-05-01T00:27:00.001+08:00

SO TOTALLY PISSED OFF BY MY BROTHER AND THE PERSON FROM DOWNSTAIRS.
HE WENT CRAZY AND THREW STUFF AROUND
THEN THE PERSON CAME TO KNOCK ON THE DOOR.
THE MINUTE I OPENED THE DOOR
THE PERSON STARTED SCOLDING ME AND SAYING THAT WE ALL MADE A LOT OF NOISE
AND DOWNSTAIRS GOT BABY AND BLAH BLAH BLAH WE STILL MAKE SO MUCH NOISE.
AS IF ITS MY FAULT
I WAS SO PISSED THAT I WAS LIKE ''YOU GO TALK TO MY BROTHER LAH
HE IS THE ONE THAT MAKE SO MUCH NOISE. WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME ANYWAY?''
THEN I JUST WALKED AWAY AND TOLD AUNTIE(MY MAID)TO ENTERTAIN THE 'GUEST'
APPARENTLY SHE TOLD THE PERSON THAT MY PARENTS NOT AROUND AND ONLY MY GRANDMOTHER AROUND
THEN SHE GO ASK MY GRANDMOTHER TO GO TALK.
GRANNY DONT WANT TO TALK SO I WENT
THE PERSON BASICALLY REPEATED THE SAME STUFF,
I WAS LIKE ''WHY YOU TELLING ME ANYWAY? ITS NOT ME, U WANT GO TALK TO MY BROTHER.'' THEN THE PERSON SAID U CAN TELL YOUR BROTHER WHAT. THE PERSON INSISTED THAT SOMETHING CAN BE DONE. I DIDN CARE ANYMORE, JUST SAID "YEA, RIGHT, AS IF HE WOULD LISTEN TO ME. EVEN IF YOU WANT ME TO DO SOMETHING, NOTHING CAN BE DONE, HE WONT LISTEN TO ME AND MY PARENTS ARE NOT AROUND." STUPID IDIOTIC BROTHER WAS AN IDIOT COWARD, REFUSED TO GO AND TALK.I JUST TOLD THE PERSON AGAIN''OR YOU CAN WAIT UNTIL MY PARENTS COME BACK AND YOU CAN TELL THEM.'' THE PERSON WAS LIKE I COMPLAIN A LOT OF TIMES ALREADY BUT THE SAME THING STILL HAPPENS.
THEN THE PERSON THREATENED MANY MANY TIMES TO CALL THE POLICE
YADDA YADDA YADDA
SO I JUST SAID OK LOR GO AND REPORT LOR.
THEN CLOSED THE DOOR.
TOO BAD THE PERSON WAS WALKING AWAY ALREADY
OR ELSE I COULD HAVE SLAMED THE DOOR IN THE PERSON'S FACE.
IT WOULD HAVE FELT SO GOOD.
THE PERSON WAS TALKING IN MANDARIN AND SUDDENLY TALK IN CANTONESE SOMEMORE, I TOLD THE PERSON IN ENGLISH I DONT UNDERSTAND.
THE PERSON SAY DONT BLUFF, HOW CAN YOU NOT UNDERSTAND IN CHINESE.
I WAS LIKE OF COURSE I UNDERSTAND CHINESE BUT I DONT UNDERSTAND CANTONESE. WHAT AN IDIOT.
PLUS WHEN SHE WAS SCOLDING, HER EYES WERE LIKE CLOSED.
AFTER EVERY MILLION SENTENCES, SHE FINALLY OPENS HER EYES.
ACTUALLY IT WAS QUITE FUNNY IN THE WAY THAT IT WAS LIKE AF SCOLDING LIDDAT. EVEN THOUGH SOMEONE SCOLDING BUT THE WAY THEY DO IT IS SO FUNNY THAT U JUST WANNA LAUGH.
ANYWAY
WHAT THE HELL

2007-04-29T10:30:00.000+08:00

28 April 2007
KALEIDOSCOPE!
it was PL's maiden concert in the new concert hall!
the afternoon show was quite a disaster..
the curtains were not working
and we were rushing like mad :\
but the night show was so different!
the curtains were working!
and the atmosphere so different!
yay!
the audience couldn't see our messiness behind it.
*never ever go to matinees if you can help it..
went quite high too!
high
high
high
hahahahaha
especially when we were waiting outside on standby
and when we were behind the curtain!
we were practicing the beat of the song
dididididi
or di di di di di
or di di di di di
the slowest was di di di di di
actually we even thought of playing a note a minute..
lol
don't think anyone understood anything about the dididididi!well, maybe xue lin and the rest of the harp ones..
anyway,
we did it!
we played like much much better than for the SYF!
we actually didn't rush as fast!
yea!
kaleidoscope almost made up for all the depressy stuff about SYF(:
kaleidoscope rocks!
early in the day, before we changed and stuff,
miss loh had a short talk with us about SYF
then we sang songs and she shared a bible verse with us
which was quite encouraging but i couldn't remember what was it..
one of the songs was:
a common love
this song is quite common
miss loh said it dates back to even before her time!
anw, singing it felt very 'bonding'
esp singing it as a group

a common love for each other
a common gift to the saviour
a common bond holding us to the Lord
a common strength for the weary
a common hope for tomorrow
a common joy in the truth of the Word

In his family, we can...
we can light each one's path
we can bear each one's grief
as his children we can comfort each care
we can build each one's faith
we can love we can share

i think it goes this way..
not sure whether its entirely correct..
lol
oh well,
the main point is that yesterday was a crazy and happy day(:

thank you harp comm, for the flower and card
thank you cheralyn and sabrina(pres of harp `04 and `07) for the star and the letter&card
thank you gwen for the card
thank you cherisse for the note
thank you ivy for the flower
thank you claire for the doraemon magnet, lol
and for being a friend that day when i cried and when we talked last night,
thank you for your encouragement as well about harp and stuff..
thank you jinle for encouraging me and cheering me up,
thank you for listening to me while i talk about SYF
and the times we talked about upcoming SYFs
thank you jeyanthi for the sweets(as mentioned in last post)
and encouraging me post-SYF, via smses
thank you helpers for helping us with everything
thank you xiuwen and vanessa for helping us with make up

thank you everyone else who has enouraged me or pl cherubs!

thank you to those who made a difference

to people whom i have missed out,sorry
THANK YOU as well

although this is quite old,
but thank you xiying for the cookie
thank you harp welfare comm for the birthday card and the SYF card thing
thank you charlene lee for the card
thank you xin yii and charlene for the small cup,the chocolates and the sweets
thank you sec 2s/juniors for the card
thank you teachers for helping us with make up and stuff

(:
i am beginning to smile again

2007-04-26T12:02:00.000+08:00

although almost a week has passed since SYF,
and others may feel like thats a long time,
to me, it still feels like it has just happened yesterday.
i feel like this is all a dream.
im still in disbelief.
im still trying to get over it.
and earlier in the week,
i thought that it was all behind me,
but i realised that deep inside,
there is this this sense of disappointment and bitterness.
i thought that by going through life just as it was before SYF,
it would sort of numb me&the horrible feeling would just disappear.
when im talking to people or really listening in class or actually doing something that needs concentration or just watching tv,
that feeling would momentarily go away,
but then, for some reason or other,
i would be reminded of it and
the empty feeling would return again and again :(
i know i ought to be happy and proud of handbells and guzheng,
they both got gold with honours
esp handbells as they are our cca's friend/alliance.
but i cant get that really happy/satisfied/yay, pl did it!feeling.
when i heard the news, i wanted to be happy and go yay!but underneath it,(and this i seriously do not understand)i still get that emptiness and heavy feeling.
i am not being a sore loser,
im really and truly happy and proud that handbells&guzheng did it!
congrats, jinle!
if you should ever read this..
but seriously, however happy and proud that they did it,
one can't ever get the same feeling that one would get if you were to do the thing yourself,
is that feeling supposed to be self satisfaction?
is this post-SYF depression?
sometimes,
i don't want to do anything, just sit there and stone.
i know life has to go on,
i must cheer up and move on,
but its hard,
although i know im not the only one having a hard time,and i hope everyone cheer up and move on too (:
its harder than i ever thought it would be.
in the past i thought that recovering from disappointment was easy,
maybe its because i never really tasted real disappointment,
or maybe nothing i experienced before was this important&mattered that much to me.
losing is really a horrible feeling :\
anyway
results don't really matter..do they?
in our hearts, we know we are better than what we got
and results don't matter that much anyway.
but to others, results are more important esp to outsiders,
to be honest,
results are kind of the most important.
it gives the first impression of the ensemble.
i want to be happy again,
truly happy, without the sadness.
when will these void of emptiness go away?

"silver does not come easily,
it needs to be earned.
And that is what we did,
we earned it.(:"
this is what jeyanthi said in one of her smses.
its very inspiring and really applies to me,
feel really proud of her,
band got silver,
and the feeling is horrible,
as i would know.
but she has made it through!
she got over the defeat,
and i hope that she will continue to strive on(:
go Band!

thank you, jeyanthi, for the sweets:D
and thank you jamie for the chocolates cum sweet(:

2007-04-22T01:47:00.001+08:00

even though my heart is still aching
and everyone else's too
i know we will be strong and go through all of this together.
we will cheer up!
we will go forth and show the world what we really are,
a gold with honours standard!
the judges just made a mistake in the results,
and after all,
silver is the new gold!
kaleidoscope,
here we come!

2007-04-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

we got a silver.
after the results was announced
everyone was in a state of shock
so not much crying
nobody really talked on the way back.
i think most were holding back their tears
i teared a few times actually
the first when we were released from the hall and went downstairs
but i managed to control lah
the second was when i was talking to jeyanthi
suddenly my eyes became teary..
then later when cheryl sent that message, about results not being impt and stuff
dunno why but a tear just ran down my cheek ):
but all through dinner i was okay, hahas

the teachers were nice too
after we played
they all claimed that it was very nice
but i knew that when we were playing
we were rushing sometimes
maybe that cost us our gold?
still can't believe that we got a silver
i thought that we really improved our playing
but maybe the judges thought otherwise?
even if we do not improve,
we should get a gold.
the standard this time is much higher
we are judged using international standards
so it would be understood that even if we didn't get higher award than the last SYF
it is quite okay/normal
but instead we deproved
when we went for dinner
everyone was psycho-ing themselves and being very positive
we even went into self-denied and said that maybe they counted the results wrongly
or announced it wrongly
or our results got mixed up with some other school!
that is how positive we were (:

but if we are really that positive and happy,
then why do i feel that my chest is very heavy?
my heart has seemed to have sinked.
and i have this sad sad feeling?
besides being surrounded by calmness?
is it the calmness before the storm?

2007-04-20T00:19:00.000+08:00

just fixed braces on my lower teeth on wednesday,
and after that i couldn't eat anything solid
its painful and uncomfortable and is still hurting now ):
tomorrow is SYF!technically it is today,since its past midnight,
feeling so excited and nervous!:\
cant believe that the day has finally come
time seems to fly these days
at first it seemed like far far away
then suddenly its just one week later
and, bham its tomorrow 20th april!
hope we get the gold with honours!
ahhhh!
(:

2007-04-10T13:47:00.000+08:00

started having fever last night
so decided to get MC and skip school today..(:
anyway, today is band's SYF day.
hope they will do fine!
and get all their techniques and what-not right..
all the best to them :D
oh and its also ELDDS SYF day!
good luck to them too!

anyway, uploaded some pics..

this is what THESIX gave me for my birthday, thank you!

genesis-thank you for the poster of wuzun!

alvina-thanks for the jellybeans (:

thank you for the present, blossom :D

2007-04-08T18:34:00.000+08:00

some random quizzes..

You Are 59% Thankful

You are certainly a thankful person, and you tend to remember what's going well in your life.You truly are a lucky person - be sure to appreciate how good you have it!

http://www.blogthings.com/howthankfulareyouquiz/">How Thankful Are You?

You Are a Night Person

For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early.In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set.So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault.You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouamorningpersonornightpersonquiz/">Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun.You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life...Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut.To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdonutareyouquiz/">What Donut Are You?

You're Totally Sarcastic

You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny.Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it.And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.

http://www.blogthings.com/howsarcasticareyouquiz/">How Sarcastic Are You?

im not that mean actually..

Travel Horoscope for Aries

When you travel, you literally want to see a whole different world.You want a vacation full of adventure, exotic sights, and tons of variety.
You should travel to:
IndiaKenyaNew ZealandBrazilThailand

What's" Your Travel Horoscope?

this is quite true though..

You Are 45% Perfectionist

No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect.Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouaperfectionistquiz/">Are You a Perfectionist?

You Are a Mac

You are creative, stylish, and super trendy.You demand the best - even if it costs an arm and a leg.

http://www.blogthings.com/areyouamacorapcquiz/">Are You a Mac or a PC?

hahas!

2007-04-08T17:51:00.001+08:00

happy easter!
happy birthday to me!

hahas, forgive me for being narcissistic..(is that spelling right?)
went for buffet lunch at swissotel the stamford to celebrate!(:
ate until i was very very full..:\
as today is easter sunday as well,
the price was a bit higher than usual,
the hotel/management/restaurant claimed that it was an international spread..
but it was just like the normal spread anyway.
feel so cheated now..
anyway,
once again,
a big thank you for all the birthday wishes!
<3.

2007-04-06T19:16:00.000+08:00

its good friday!
went to church this morning for the good friday service.
reached there a bit late,
and although it was really crowded,
we used the same 'trick' we used last year-just walk in as if you have seats reserved
and managed to get some seats although they were scattered all over the place..
the songs they sang today were all very new- haven't heard any of them before
the 'unlucky' thing was, there was this woman who went and stood right behind my seat(mine was the last row)and sang like quite/very loudly, i was kinda complaining in my heart all the way, but since it was good friday:), i decided to just forget it :D
And since i got sun burnt from sailing the other time,
my skin is peeling now..
and when we were taking holy communion, i think a piece of my skin fell into my 'cup'
and it was super disgusting :\
but i had no choice lor, so just dig the skin out and drank it. bleah~
anyway, my birthday's on sunday
so my lovely beloved friends help me celebrate on thursday,
make me go school so early some more, fake say dunno how to do a maths, ask me come school teach them -_-"
anw, they baked a cake for me
and apparently, never add enough oil or something,
so after ten minutes after the cake in the oven, half of it got burned!
the result of it looks like a sort of 'b', and it was really hard as well..
when i tried to cut the cake,
i couldn't cut it at all..
so everyone took turns biting from it
and trying to cut it..
hahas, the scene was very funny!
then after the biting and hacking of the cake,
it morphed into a heart!
but, seriously, the cake is actually very nice even though its burned and hard as well..
there were some soft parts as well though..compared to the rest of the cake.
but it tasted damm nice, my brother tried it and wanted a cake just like that too!
hahas! :D
THANK YOU! for the cake,
alvina, amanda, claire, e-liz, ivy, jaslynn, jiale, jinle...
thanks for the card, jinle!
thanks to the people that wished me happy birthday too (:

2007-04-04T22:46:00.001+08:00

realised that i haven't post for a long time..
was really busy with everything as well
so,
anyway, the class is playing the angel and mortal game now.
hahas.
just received a present from my angel today,
its brand's essence of chicken!
LOL.
it was such an unexpected gift lah.
but it was really sweet as well, i guess,
not to mention special!
angel, whoever you are, thank you!
:D

2007-03-24T15:45:00.000+08:00

sometimes dunno who i am anymore,
i just can't control myself,
i got angry at my brother over something and just hit him real hard on his arm,
then when he started crying,
i felt very guilty :\
man, i was so violent, i cant believe it
i feel very tired.
for the past week,
i didn't get a chance to sleep till its like past 12.30am
so only got 6 plus hours of sleep.
even on friday night, was busy doing some shit piano list thing
and slept at like 1.30am
then in the morning had to wake up and go for piano:(
so the whole week, i was nodding away in e maths and english
almost slept in maths as AF was teaching
it was boring like hell
even almost fell asleep in harp!
i was holding on to the harp and just rested my head on it
while the teacher was talking, then simply closed my eyes cause was so tired.
harp practice increased by one more day..
now its mon, tues, thurs and friday.
getting busier and busier :/
but sometimes its a blessing,
cos when i am busy,
i just rush around, kind of a way to numb myself and be so busy
that i would not have the time to think/feel what im really feeling.
anyway,
went to the new AMKhub today on the way home,
and discovered a store selling donuts!
something like dunkin donuts!
'summerhouse donuts', i think its called.
bought some but haven't tried them yet.
hope its nice :D

2007-03-16T23:14:00.001+08:00

we had the mini SYF concert thing in the new school auditorium today.
it was kind of nice and cool, i guess, to have an auditorium and be the first ones using it..
but the seats were not as comfortable as i expected, the ones in my church were way more comfortable, sometimes too comfortable, it always made me want to sleep through the whole sermon..hahas.
anyway, i think our playing kinda sucked today compared to others, it was kinda rubbishy
but the judge said that it was ok, except for some parts where the melody was drowned out by the chords..
my version is much worse:
1.playing too soft.
2.according to esther, they were not playing some parts correctly cause of some confusion or something..
3.dont think we were playing together..
4.junior said we were kinda rushing, and they could tell.
and goodness knows how many more mistakes..
think we have lots of practicing to do..
but the gz tuan was like woah, they were so passionate lor, and it was damn nice, unbelievable, the judge said!
their hand actions and stuff were so coordinated and nice to watch!
must definitely learn from them.
a lot of music groups who perform today used the knocking on their instruments technique..
and harp did like everything a guitar could do..
they strum,we strum;they knock,we knock;they did the finger thing(dunno what its called),we did too..

sometimes i feel as if im pretending, the whole world's pretending.
but i do have times when i feel im myself.

2007-03-14T18:21:00.001+08:00

my parents quarrelled yesterday night
over a small remark made by my dad.
cant believe it.
my mum is still pissed.
call us childish?
then what are they?
aren't they just plain childish as well..
had harp for the whole day.
miss loh came and did 'spot check' on us.
found out that we had lots of mistakes, were not playing together, were rushing
and that we were so not ready for SYF if we wanted gwh..
then she had a long long talk with us about handbell and harp and how SYF standard gets higher every 2 years.
personally if and only IF we get a lousier award than NH,
i would just go home and cry.
imagine the humulity.
not only for us but our school's and harp's reputation.
x|
anw,
according to miss loh,
gold=good secondary harp players
gold with honors=professional players
what would one choose?
after our school already had 2 golds for the previous SYFs.
gz, apparently is under a lot of pressure since they got like gwh at last SYF.
well, good luck to them!
hahas.
have to really get started on holiday homework..

2007-03-10T17:11:00.001+08:00

photos from NEWater:

photos from NEWater:

2007-03-10T16:58:00.001+08:00

changed blogskin!
but still cant believe that i changed it to a pink one..
although its nice.i think.
put up a whole new list of wants!
hope i get them:)
what a day it will be when there would be no more worries or stress or exams or stuff like that.
although it would be impossible unless u were dead..
there was no sailing today cos of there is a regatta going on.
super bored now and super sunny too.
yawns.
march hols next week.
but have to go to school like three times
so how can it be called a holiday?
but compared to the other CCAs like band and gz who have to go back everyday..
im considered lucky though.
haiz.
plus got so much homework..
with all these things to do
then where is the time for resting??
teachers are really crazy, they think we have so much time just cos its the holidays and load us with homework.
dont they ever think that an average person is taking 8 subjects,
if every teacher thinks the same way then we will end up even busier than a normal school week
what with CCA and stuff..
arghh.
but after the extremely bad results i got in term 1,
better buck up and study real hard for term 2..
my report book already looked so bad after failing 2 subjects.
first time i got F9, D7, C6!
now it looks so colourful!
its actually almost in running numbers&alphabets starting from B3!
so to conclude,
march holidays are actually not for resting..
well, for me anyway.
its for mugging to revise on everything taught in term 1
and for going for CCA practices.
haiz, how depressing.

I WANT MY As BACK.

2007-03-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

did not have time to blog for quite a long time.
okay.
so flunked most of my subjects for common tests.
failed A maths and chemistry.
and did badly for the rest.
honestly did not know what to feel when i got my results.
happy that i passed; at least.
or sad that i got low marks..
oh well.
heard that its normal to do badly for term 1
gonna have to work much harder for next term..
recently realised that people having yahoo email could talk to people having hotmail using messanger.
hahas.
went to newater visitor centre yesterday anyway.
second time there &
nothing changed at all..
since when i was like p4 or p5!
lol.
loads of homework to do still..
:D

2007-02-28T20:52:00.001+08:00

actually wanted to go e-liz's house just now.
but after the mrs tng's meeting already quite late.
plus the others were all probably already there.
then by the time i reach maybe they all going off.
so didn't feel like going..
so just stayed in school with jinle and jeyanthi.
hang around for a while
reminiscing about the past..a bit
then went home.
dunno why but appetite suddenly very big.
ate potato chip & twisties & tapioca cake & siew mai!
then later ate fried rice with egg and onion!
which was very oily and quite disgusting..
but oh well..
feel kinda guilty for eating so much in a few hours.
anyways
i feel sick now.
suddenly feel very tired.
and a bit dizzy.
& started sneezing.
every time i blew my nose i felt dizzy
like the room started to move/shake/whatever
and my ears are blocked..
cant hear anything properly.
ahhh.
feel damm lousy now.
at least if im sick i wanna be properly sick like got mc;no need to go school.
or else i want to feel all right and normal-ish.
just blew my nose again.
room started moving again
and my ears still blocked.
wth am i supposed to do?
dont feel like blogging anymore.
=(
bye.

2007-02-27T00:12:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
新年快乐！
万事如意！
猪年行大运！
is there such a thing as zhu nian xing da yun?
lol.
anyway,
didn't have time to blog what with all the common tests and cny visiting and stuff.
think im gonna fail most of my common tests anyway
its like whether i study a not, the results will be the same?
haiyo.
cant really be bothered already.
since its like already over..
so.
went sailing on last saturday.
but didn't get the chance to sail.
cos the wind was too strong.
the boats were capsizing each time they tried to set sail.
wing too strong=cant set off so cant sail.
no wind=cant sail cos there's like no wind.
lol.
so rigged and un-rigged the boats for nothing..
at least they gave us charter vouchers to get one week of boat rental free
since we didn't use the craft at all.
for CNY, went visiting as per normal.
the usual people.
thought i collected lesser angpows than last year
but turned out to be quite a lot too!
hahas.
and also conveniently filled up the methodist walk donation card!
just went every house and asked for donation.
granduncles/aunties',uncles/aunties were very very generous!
all gave like five/ten dollars!
i was very surprised lor.
but it was a pleasant surprise.
enjoyed CNY anyway
although the mood this year is a bit down liddat.
dunno why..
but its a holiday so enjoyed it lah!
then on saturday after sailing
went to tiffany's house for bbq.
thought there would be lots of people.
but turned out there was only robyn, claire, me and of course tiffany..
bbq lots of things.
and the salmon was especially nice!
and the stingray!
and the 'chengtang' was damm nice to drink too!
eat until my stomach felt like bursting.was so full after that..
think it was mainly cos of the drink.
drank lots of cups.
cos the place was very hot..and the food too!
went to tiffany's house on the seventh day of CNY last year too.
lol.
so coincidence lor.
or maybe it was planned this way..
then today went to help out in the sports heats.
was one of the judges..looking out for the 2nd position.
hahas.
quite boring but it was okay although the legs is like very 'suan' liao..
it started raining only after one heats event took place..
postponed the meeting till four lor..
so late lah!
but think they managed to finish everything anyway.
then after that went to chomp chomp with alvina, jaslynn, claire, amanda...etc
to eat dinner.
ate stingray and oyster egg and egg jelly bean curd thingy and drank sugarcane!
oh and banana fritter!it was very nice!
although didn't really eat a lot
but still ended up very full lor.
dunno why also.
oh well.
then on the way home,thought i took the wrong 73 that was going the opposite direction.
so got down but realised that its actually the correct one..
oh man
was so pissed with myself.
so in the end called my parents to come pick me up.
hahas.
aiyo.feel sick.really wished that i was sick.then dont have to go school tomorrow..
sick of school lah..
sianz.
i wanna be sick and have fever or something!
gonna try to be sick..
twisting my fingers;
<3;
.

2007-02-14T23:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
yay.
its valentine's day!
February 14 '2007!
received chocolates and cookies and cupcake!
yum!
& a fake rose!
hahas.
everyone was exchanging presents like it was christmas!
quite fun..
i saw sunflowers too
dunno why but im beginning to love sunflowers!
think they make me feel like smiling just by looking at them!
they make me feel cheerful.
so bright and yellow-ey and happy!
hahas.
found out my A maths test results today!
i thought i was gonna fail it cos i flunked my maths test.
but i actually passed!25/30!
cant believe i failed my maths test;7/15 and passed A maths!
that is so weird..
lol.
although today is valentine's, had to stay back for extra maths lessons..
cos we havent finished logarithms yet..
which is needed for some stupid test which falls on 23 feb..just 2 days after CNY holidays:(
the common test schedule is so dumb lor.
22feb:pure geog,social studies and lit test
23feb:maths and a maths test
26feb:physics and probably chemistry test too
cant even enjoy CNY properly..
stupid stupid common tests
arghhhh!
but today is valentine's day..
must be happy!
hahas.
anyway, after a maths there was supposed to be a sort of clique lunch although half the clique was like missing..
so it turned into lunch@swensens@compass point
but i didnt go.
had to go for dental appointment..
and even though i left school pretty early, only managed to catch bus62 at around 3.45, and was late for dental appointment again..
dr.djeng put the braces thing on like really tight..
had problems eating:(
then after that went back to mum's boutique and stayed there till we went home.
actually walked around raffles place a bit..
lots of people were buying flowers and stuff like that..
the florists were like all damn busy and stuff..
lol.
then went home..
havent bathed yet..
so i gonna bathe now!
stop.
hahas.
so,
wishing everyone out there a happy valentine's!
<33!>

2007-02-04T00:16:00.001+08:00

luckily did not get scolded during piano.
phew..
actually she said i improved lor.
and said that i must have practised.
hahas!
actually didn really touch the piano lor.
i was like pretending all the way.
but luckily did my scales quite alright-ly..
and the pieces too.improved a bit.
so it went quite well..
then went to thomson plaza to buy some flask for boiling water..
then after that slacked the whole afternoon.
supposed to catch up on my studies&do homework..
but somehow just spent the time watching tv.
watching it started with a kiss now..
even though everyone watched a few months ago..
actually quite interesting.
but some parts very stupid&dumb.
like the episode where the 10year plus girl told the 18/19 year old guy(jiangzhishu or joecheng)that she liked him..
it was so ridiculous..
lol.
but compared to this show..
i like hana kimi aka花样少男少nu more!
its so hilarious..
esp with wuzun and ella!
but the last 5 episodes have not come out yet..
will be out this month sometime..
aiyo.
watch half way then suddenly have to pause..
so like half way-ly..
hahas.
oh well.
no choice..
(:

2007-02-03T14:09:00.000+08:00

okay.
busy week.
monday:maths test&english narrative writing test.
failed maths.
got my locker on wednesday.
yay.
but it was like so small..
oh well.
spent wednesday busy doing geography.
and studied for about ten minutes for chinese test.
was too tired so i just went to sleep and forgot about chinese..
thursday still need to stay back for house practice which was a total waste of time..as usual..
aiya.
then had english comprehension test today.
didnt get any idea what the whole stupid passage was talking about..
it was like so damn hard!
some grandma with an amputed leg and someone pretending to be someone else..
whatever lah.
cant be bothered.
think im gonna failed maths for the rest of the year or something..
cant seem to grasp the concept.
and cant find any assessment books to do either.
oh well.
no sailing tomorrow.
can slack.
but still have dumb piano class.
gonna get scolded again..
x(
hahas.
finished.
<3

2007-01-29T16:37:00.000+08:00

went to east coast today with claire.
and cycled like mad.
now my poor legs/thighs so suan..
esp. climbing stairs that time..
wahseh. murder ah..
all claire's fault lah.
bluffed me about the time.
thought we were late liao.
and that overtime for the bicycle rental thing..
lol.
then afterwards we went to eat at gelare.
yum!the ice cream is like damn nice.
i can eat the whole tub finish if i had a chance to..
but the mushroom pasta was ok ok only..
not really fantastic lah.
but the ice cream more than made up for it!
hahas!
anyway.
i went to IMM later
and was in time for the Fahrenheit autograph signing
i didn have enough time to queue and get an autograph..
BUT. i saw WUZUN!!
he some more turned towards my direction at one time!
yay!
there was like a lot of people there lah.
and some were like screaming their names and stuff!
so squeezy..
if i queued earlier instead of dilly-dallying around
maybe got enough time to queue
but need to go home already..so too bad lor.
but since the main point of going there is to see wuzun plus shake his hand and stuff..
i already got half of it achieved..
so must be contented and grateful..
cannot be too greedy mah.
so yay! got to see wuzun!
maybe next time then get his autograph lor..
hope there's another chance..
that they will have another autograph signing session soon!
hoping, waiting, wishing.
hahas.
oh well.
i saw wuzun!!
think im going mad liao.
<3wuzun.
hahas.
the mad mad me.
<3.

2007-01-28T18:24:00.000+08:00

Really pissed by lots of things that happened today.
#1.stupid piano teacher scolded me again for not practicing
already stay back four days a week & reach home around 7 .
still expects me to practice in the night.
then later she said okay, practice more on the other days remaining.
still got homework to do lah.
she think i so free ah.
then if i devote all my time on all these things then when do i do normal relaxing stuff like watch tv.
its not as if piano is at the top of my list of priorities.
#2.stupid idiotic freaking brother pissed me again when i was using computer late at night.
demanded to play even after he already played for the whole day.
hello, i was out the whole day lah.
i refused then later ended up fighting physically with him.
got so angry that i felt like killing him.
i know im not supposed to say that.
but anyway ended up only shaking his stuff out of his bag.
really.
the BIG STUPID FREAKO SHIT IDIOT.
my life sucks at times.
anyway went for sailing today.
was wet setting up the boat even before starting to sail.
rain rain go away..
but actually the rain was kinda okay and nice..quite shuang..
wind was nice at times
good&nice for sailing.
yay.
then later the instructor helper say i can sail so fast, quite good ah..
but then again, i think it was the wind.
it was quite strong.
oh well.
sailing went quite well on the whole.
remembered all the terms and stuff i learned during GKA!
finally.
it all came naturally actually.
tried to stand up and sail as well.it went successfully!
(:
there is gonna be a fahrenheit autograph session at IMM,6pm on sunday 28/01/07
actually today since its already past midnight..
i want to go.
but its so far&nobody i know going.
i want wuzun's signature!
lol.
aiyo.
how?
oh well.
maybe just have to stay home and dream about him
and a dreamy autograph..
oh man,
WUZUN!

2007-01-23T12:37:00.000+08:00

okay.my first post on this new blog..
hope i dont abandon it like i did to the others..
so there is this new taiwan drama series called hana kimi!
its damn nice so everyone should watch it!!
wu zun is like so shuai!!!
not to mention ella who looks so cute!
ok so theres this oral presentation on some book review that everyone has to do..
dunno what book to do
cos obviously all the books i mostly read are like so crappy
they cannot even be read by the english teacher..
so how can i use them..
oh well.
actually maybe teaching & being in charge of sec 1s who are not from the guai guai classes are like easier..
as they talk more and sometimes more mischievious
but at least they are easier to talk to.
no offence to any sec1 who reads this anyway.
today monday also had litE with GD. who is totally weird..
whats her problem about seating arrangements and school uniforms/pinafores??
kinda convinced that all lit teachers are weird in a way
maybe thats how they come..
with all their weirdness...
lol.
So, everyone should go watch Hanakimi!
its very funny!plus there are yummy looking people in there!
double bonus!
WUZUN!!