Friday, May 25, 2007
yesterday was the last day of schoolcos today was meet the parents session
finally persuaded my parents not to go meet teacher
then f had to go request to meet my parents
so had no choice
she said stuff like ask my parents to ask me go think about what i want to do with my life
and with my current results only can go ite
so wth
only sec 3 mid-of-years what
and i know i never work hard enough
so its not as if im stupid
i got fifth position lor
from the bottom, that is
and why does meet the parents have to happen on the last day of school??
parents gonna give me hell during the hols..
oh well
going to have to work super hard for the rest of the year
anyway
lots of 'great' things happened on the last day of school
first my eye was swollen
then i got this stupid hideous haircut the day before so went to school with it
plus i had rubber bands in my mouth
what a 'great' day i had!
now, maybe i cant even go sailing anymore
because of poor results
my father said that i cant go sailing until the end of the year):
oh manz
so wth
ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
some very random pics..
9:23:00 PM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
finally paid mrs goh the piano fees(:then after that had sailing in the afternoon
actually our class wanted to go to sail to Seletar park
but on the way it started raining
so coach asked us to turn and go back to shore
but the rain suddenly became SO heavy
that everyone started capsizing
after that the waves also got bigger and bigger
my boat turned turtle
and i couldn't upright it
there was tunder and lightning
and i saw purple lightning
those clear lightning type that u only see in pictures
and the rain also got so heavy that it was pain when it hit the skin
it was damn scary
everyone drifted apart
or maybe it was only me
couldn't see anyone at all
visibility was that bad
and the waves were huge
the lightning seemed to travel closer and closer to me
and i was damn scared lah
cos my dagger board sticking out
and lightning is supposed to strike the highest point around
and that was the highest point around
so i kind of just stayed in the water and clung on to the boat
and prayed and prayed and prayed
and sang songs
that kind of helped a bit
anyway it was like i was the only one in the middle of the sea
with the big waves
and the big big storm
since i couldn't see anyone at all
at first thought that no one was gonna rescue us
and that we had to wait till the storm cleared and then sail back ourselves
i was like die lah
by that time sure get hit by lightning already lor
waited quite long
and getting more and more stressed and scared
because of the stupid lightning
then suddenly saw a motor boat!
and it was coming closer and closer
thought they wanted to tow my topper back as well
so tried to tell them that i couldn't upright it
then in the end
the guy was like "listen to me carefully,
grab my hand"so i treaded water, swim swim
then finally grab his hand then he took my life jacket/pfd and pulled me into the boat
when i got in, was facing the bottom of the boat lah
so damn unglam..
anyway
then isobel
helped me into the back of the boat
i was the third person to be rescued in my boat
then sat at the back of the boat
and looked out for others that were still in the water
then we were all like discussing about the whole thing
it actually was kind of drama
like some kind of movie
later found genevieve as well after vivian
she was in the middle of some plastic containers that surrounded with no gap in between
wonder how she got in there!
and it was some boundary of some kelong as well lor!
then our boat passed some the other rescue boat
tried to look for claire
but she was not rescued yet
i was like where's claire, where's claire?omg omg is she okay??
then started praying
luckily the next time we passed the other boat
she was in there(:
finally after rescuing everyone
we went back to shore
it was so shaky and dizzying when i stepped onto the ramp thing
oh and the motor boat also made me very dizzy lor
dunno how can they stand being in the motor boat for so long
and now as im typing this
the whole world is also shaking lor
got the being in the boat kind of feeling
very very dizzy
the walls, the floor, everything is moving in a wave-like manner
havent felt this way since GKA
anyway
saw claire when i reached shore too
think she was very scared
she said she was crying in the motor boat at first
cos when she initially saw my boat
she didn't see me
think i was already rescued
then she thought dunno what happened
and there was snot on her face
hahas
if under normal circumstances
it would have been quite funny
actually i capsized quite far away from her
guess my boat drifted all the way to her side
see the power of the big big gigantic waves!
later after the storm finally cleared
the people went to look for our toppers and pico
most were still in working condition
but there was one sail the pole thing which was broken
and another which was bend
oh and my boat came in last
at nearly 7pm
after coach went out again to search again for it
hope its okay
didn't get a chance to look at it
this is really a memorable last lesson
in fact even more memorable than had we been ableto go to Seletar park
i think i will never forget it ever
maybe tens of years later
i will be able to tell people that "when i was just a teenager, at 15 years old..."
hahas
oh and since its the last lesson
we took pics with everyone
hope i get the pics
will really miss everyone after so many weeks of training together
(:
later in the evening
went to tony roma's for dinner
oh man
their ribs are like the nicest ever
and the baked potato and the soap
actually its very fattening
but dont care lah
its so damn nice lor
and their bread with their own butter
also the best!
what a wonderful day!
the damn nice dinner totally made up for the stranded out at sea part..
what a narrow escape man!
11:44:00 PM
Friday, May 18, 2007
in com lab nowslacking away during english
actually pretty much slacked the whole week away..
hahas
ppl poned the whole week.
so yea
pretty slacky
lalala
11:41:00 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
realised that i havent blogged for a long long time..had camp from 9-11 may
the sec 3 development camp
at changi coast adventure centre
had a fun time
did abseiling, rock climbing and zip line
and kayaking, sea rafting and improvised rafting.
the dorms were quite nice too, i like the floors we slept on
but the toilets were disgusting!
it was clean compared to mega camp lah
but it was disgusting after everyone bathed
like sand and mud and hair everywhere..
and campfire was great too
but the fire a bit pathetic..as it rained on the first day and they had no time to go cover the wood.
i was in group 2, orion and our instructor was viona!
the one who thought us merlion clap and the in changi we do it with our fingers..
hahas
loved the didi didididi a baby shark
didi didididi a baby shark
didi didididi a mama shark...
heh heh
u think funfair ah!
说来就来，说走就走，一票玩到底！做梦阿！
this was what yuan long(grp 1&2 combined co-instructor)loved to say and ah bao too!
hahas.
overall the camp was fun lah
most people had a great time
actually kinda missed it..
but oh well
there's still mega camp to look forward to！
oh and we started getting back common test results today
as usual
flunked them both):
physics and geography
actually i improved on geography!
but still very lousy lor.
sometimes really regret taking pure geography
everyone excluding friends was telling me to take pure lit at that time
but based on sec 2 results,
geog was one of my best subjects
so i thought should be quite easy right..
how wrong i was..
think im gonna fail chemistry and dunno how many other subjects..
my rank for this term is gonna be in the last few of the class or something lor
all along i have always been in the top twenty of the class lah
then now...
so gonna die
):
6:03:00 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
SO TOTALLY PISSED OFF BY MY BROTHER AND THE PERSON FROM DOWNSTAIRS.HE WENT CRAZY AND THREW STUFF AROUND
THEN THE PERSON CAME TO KNOCK ON THE DOOR.
THE MINUTE I OPENED THE DOOR
THE PERSON STARTED SCOLDING ME AND SAYING THAT WE ALL MADE A LOT OF NOISE
AND DOWNSTAIRS GOT BABY AND BLAH BLAH BLAH WE STILL MAKE SO MUCH NOISE.
AS IF ITS MY FAULT
I WAS SO PISSED THAT I WAS LIKE ''YOU GO TALK TO MY BROTHER LAH
HE IS THE ONE THAT MAKE SO MUCH NOISE. WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME ANYWAY?''
THEN I JUST WALKED AWAY AND TOLD AUNTIE(MY MAID)TO ENTERTAIN THE 'GUEST'
APPARENTLY SHE TOLD THE PERSON THAT MY PARENTS NOT AROUND AND ONLY MY GRANDMOTHER AROUND
THEN SHE GO ASK MY GRANDMOTHER TO GO TALK.
GRANNY DONT WANT TO TALK SO I WENT
THE PERSON BASICALLY REPEATED THE SAME STUFF,
I WAS LIKE ''WHY YOU TELLING ME ANYWAY? ITS NOT ME, U WANT GO TALK TO MY BROTHER.'' THEN THE PERSON SAID U CAN TELL YOUR BROTHER WHAT. THE PERSON INSISTED THAT SOMETHING CAN BE DONE. I DIDN CARE ANYMORE, JUST SAID "YEA, RIGHT, AS IF HE WOULD LISTEN TO ME. EVEN IF YOU WANT ME TO DO SOMETHING, NOTHING CAN BE DONE, HE WONT LISTEN TO ME AND MY PARENTS ARE NOT AROUND." STUPID IDIOTIC BROTHER WAS AN IDIOT COWARD, REFUSED TO GO AND TALK.I JUST TOLD THE PERSON AGAIN''OR YOU CAN WAIT UNTIL MY PARENTS COME BACK AND YOU CAN TELL THEM.'' THE PERSON WAS LIKE I COMPLAIN A LOT OF TIMES ALREADY BUT THE SAME THING STILL HAPPENS.
THEN THE PERSON THREATENED MANY MANY TIMES TO CALL THE POLICE
YADDA YADDA YADDA
SO I JUST SAID OK LOR GO AND REPORT LOR.
THEN CLOSED THE DOOR.
TOO BAD THE PERSON WAS WALKING AWAY ALREADY
OR ELSE I COULD HAVE SLAMED THE DOOR IN THE PERSON'S FACE.
IT WOULD HAVE FELT SO GOOD.
THE PERSON WAS TALKING IN MANDARIN AND SUDDENLY TALK IN CANTONESE SOMEMORE, I TOLD THE PERSON IN ENGLISH I DONT UNDERSTAND.
THE PERSON SAY DONT BLUFF, HOW CAN YOU NOT UNDERSTAND IN CHINESE.
I WAS LIKE OF COURSE I UNDERSTAND CHINESE BUT I DONT UNDERSTAND CANTONESE. WHAT AN IDIOT.
PLUS WHEN SHE WAS SCOLDING, HER EYES WERE LIKE CLOSED.
AFTER EVERY MILLION SENTENCES, SHE FINALLY OPENS HER EYES.
ACTUALLY IT WAS QUITE FUNNY IN THE WAY THAT IT WAS LIKE AF SCOLDING LIDDAT. EVEN THOUGH SOMEONE SCOLDING BUT THE WAY THEY DO IT IS SO FUNNY THAT U JUST WANNA LAUGH.
ANYWAY
WHAT THE HELL
12:27:00 AM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
28 April 2007KALEIDOSCOPE!
it was PL's maiden concert in the new concert hall!
the afternoon show was quite a disaster..
the curtains were not working
and we were rushing like mad :\
but the night show was so different!
the curtains were working!
and the atmosphere so different!
yay!
the audience couldn't see our messiness behind it.
*never ever go to matinees if you can help it..
went quite high too!
high
high
high
hahahahaha
especially when we were waiting outside on standby
and when we were behind the curtain!
we were practicing the beat of the song
dididididi
or di di di di di
or di di di di di
the slowest was di di di di di
actually we even thought of playing a note a minute..
lol
don't think anyone understood anything about the dididididi!well, maybe xue lin and the rest of the harp ones..
anyway,
we did it!
we played like much much better than for the SYF!
we actually didn't rush as fast!
yea!
kaleidoscope almost made up for all the depressy stuff about SYF(:
kaleidoscope rocks!
early in the day, before we changed and stuff,
miss loh had a short talk with us about SYF
then we sang songs and she shared a bible verse with us
which was quite encouraging but i couldn't remember what was it..
one of the songs was:
a common love
this song is quite common
miss loh said it dates back to even before her time!
anw, singing it felt very 'bonding'
esp singing it as a group
a common love for each other
a common gift to the saviour
a common bond holding us to the Lord
a common strength for the weary
a common hope for tomorrow
a common joy in the truth of the Word
In his family, we can...
we can light each one's path
we can bear each one's grief
as his children we can comfort each care
we can build each one's faith
we can love we can share
i think it goes this way..
not sure whether its entirely correct..
lol
oh well,
the main point is that yesterday was a crazy and happy day(:
thank you harp comm, for the flower and card
thank you cheralyn and sabrina(pres of harp `04 and `07) for the star and the letter&card
thank you gwen for the card
thank you cherisse for the note
thank you ivy for the flower
thank you claire for the doraemon magnet, lol
and for being a friend that day when i cried and when we talked last night,
thank you for your encouragement as well about harp and stuff..
thank you jinle for encouraging me and cheering me up,
thank you for listening to me while i talk about SYF
and the times we talked about upcoming SYFs
thank you jeyanthi for the sweets(as mentioned in last post)
and encouraging me post-SYF, via smses
thank you helpers for helping us with everything
thank you xiuwen and vanessa for helping us with make up
thank you everyone else who has enouraged me or pl cherubs!
thank you to those who made a difference
to people whom i have missed out,sorry
THANK YOU as well
although this is quite old,
but thank you xiying for the cookie
thank you harp welfare comm for the birthday card and the SYF card thing
thank you charlene lee for the card
thank you xin yii and charlene for the small cup,the chocolates and the sweets
thank you sec 2s/juniors for the card
thank you teachers for helping us with make up and stuff
(:
i am beginning to smile again
10:30:00 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
although almost a week has passed since SYF,and others may feel like thats a long time,
to me, it still feels like it has just happened yesterday.
i feel like this is all a dream.
im still in disbelief.
im still trying to get over it.
and earlier in the week,
i thought that it was all behind me,
but i realised that deep inside,
there is this this sense of disappointment and bitterness.
i thought that by going through life just as it was before SYF,
it would sort of numb me&the horrible feeling would just disappear.
when im talking to people or really listening in class or actually doing something that needs concentration or just watching tv,
that feeling would momentarily go away,
but then, for some reason or other,
i would be reminded of it and
the empty feeling would return again and again :(
i know i ought to be happy and proud of handbells and guzheng,
they both got gold with honours
esp handbells as they are our cca's friend/alliance.
but i cant get that really happy/satisfied/yay, pl did it!feeling.
when i heard the news, i wanted to be happy and go yay!but underneath it,(and this i seriously do not understand)i still get that emptiness and heavy feeling.
i am not being a sore loser,
im really and truly happy and proud that handbells&guzheng did it!
congrats, jinle!
if you should ever read this..
but seriously, however happy and proud that they did it,
one can't ever get the same feeling that one would get if you were to do the thing yourself,
is that feeling supposed to be self satisfaction?
is this post-SYF depression?
sometimes,
i don't want to do anything, just sit there and stone.
i know life has to go on,
i must cheer up and move on,
but its hard,
although i know im not the only one having a hard time,and i hope everyone cheer up and move on too (:
its harder than i ever thought it would be.
in the past i thought that recovering from disappointment was easy,
maybe its because i never really tasted real disappointment,
or maybe nothing i experienced before was this important&mattered that much to me.
losing is really a horrible feeling :\
anyway
results don't really matter..do they?
in our hearts, we know we are better than what we got
and results don't matter that much anyway.
but to others, results are more important esp to outsiders,
to be honest,
results are kind of the most important.
it gives the first impression of the ensemble.
i want to be happy again,
truly happy, without the sadness.
when will these void of emptiness go away?
"silver does not come easily,
it needs to be earned.
And that is what we did,
we earned it.(:"
this is what jeyanthi said in one of her smses.
its very inspiring and really applies to me,
feel really proud of her,
band got silver,
and the feeling is horrible,
as i would know.
but she has made it through!
she got over the defeat,
and i hope that she will continue to strive on(:
go Band!
thank you, jeyanthi, for the sweets:D
and thank you jamie for the chocolates cum sweet(:
12:02:00 PM
